So it has been a while since I last posted. I guess I have been in a bit of a dark space for the last few months.
I was recently back at the hospital and they gave me some more pills to take, stronger than the last lot they gave me and now of course my hormones are going haywire... on top of the crazy hormones, which by the way caused day crippling headaches and a very dodgy stomach I have also managed to contract pharingitis (a not very nice throat infection)... but hey that's okay - it means I get to knock back super yucky tasting antibiotics - and the sugar on top of a very annoying situation is that I have many people unhappy with me due to the absence my illness/reactions are causing. So I am feeling very stressed out and anxious as I guess more stomach turning confrontation is ahead of me.
The thing is I am not dying - just having annoying medical issues that are hopefully on their way to being sorted. So I really should be a bit more cheery - it is just difficult when you feel rubbish and you know a lions den greeting is awaiting you. It sucks that the things I have been working so hard to achieve appear to be floating away, and not even that slowly - in with one tide, out with the next. Life has become awfully 2D recently; no one wants to see the world in 3D, not if it means they have to consider the grey of the situation. As someone once said to me - perception is reality... I guess I just need to get used to that.
Right, back to the black hole I have carved out for myself. . .
Sorry the last few blogs have been such a downer.
"I feel like a quote out of context
Withholding the rest
So I can be for you what you want to see
I got the gesture and sound
Got the timing down
It's uncanny, yeah, you think it was me"
Ben Folds Five - Best imitation of myself
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